For the past 8 years, I’ve traveled all around. I left Kansas City, MO and ended up in Washington DC. In between, I’ve lived and explored Europe and I visited Asia....if you call that visiting. I’ve moved about 7 times. I have purposely avoided any type of substantial consistency.
In my current situation, I live-in-sin with my boyfriend of 3 years, and we have been in our apartment for TWO YEARS!!! <insert collective gasp here>
Our lease is coming to an end, and I am ready to get the heck out of here. Don’t get me wrong, I really like where I live. I have a pedestrian lifestyle and the luxury apartment complex isn’t too shabby either. I have no reason to complain about my living situation. It’s everything one could want in the DC area, including washer/dryer in-unit.....which is apparently UNHEARD of.
So why do I want to move?
Why can’t I get away from this nomadic existence I have created for myself?
Well, I like moving. I like starting over. I like change. I like finding a new neighborhood to explore. It’s exhilarating.
But, am I getting too old for this??? I’m almost the big 3-0, dear reader. Shouldn’t I be acting more like a grown-up?
I have multiple friends who are married, have kids, and pay on a mortgage. <again, gasp!> I have some friends who are having kids on purpose!!!
Am I suppose to want all of this too??? Should I be establishing roots somewhere? Should discussion of the “M” word be in our conversations?? <insert screaming here>
Maybe I’m just too immature. Maybe I’m not ready to “settle down” and be a real person, or maybe I’m not ready to be a grown-up.
I don’t know what I’m suppose to do. I don’t even know what society says I should do - yes, even society has conflicting ideas. All I know is that I really enjoy change. I like the unknown. Being comfortable, while very nice, becomes boring. I’m so afraid of becoming stagnant in my own life that I think I over-compensate by constantly engaging in some type of new activity.
What do you think?? Am I too old to have a nomadic lifestyle? Should I “settle down” and start being establishing roots? Or, should I keep going in this direction and see where I end up?
P.S. If you have ideas on how to proactively make life choices, please include them in the below comment section.
